sapanwood: (☄ observe)
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I think I hate them.

People call them monsters, and... I think I understand why now. They lose their hearts so they can kill without conscience. That's what people say, at least. They can kill without feeling anything because they don't have feelings. Is it in exchange for their powers?

My brother became a Contractor after an accident. I haven't seen his real smile since that night in Siberia when he promised he would protect me. When I told him about how Nika confessed to Tanya, he couldn't understand love. Not... not in the same way as me, but in a way that he couldn't understand why a person would love. And he called Mama an "unnecessary person".

When Tanya became a Contractor, she tried to hurt Nika. Nika, who had just confessed that she liked her the day earlier. They had walked home together holding hands and laughing that day. When she became a Contractor, it was like she forgot everything.

I hate them. I hate Contractors for taking away Shion and Tanya— No, I hate the Gates for taking them away. I hate the Contractor who killed my Papa and tied me up. Even though he-

Can they even feel pain anymore?

[ooc: A- a little late! Please forgive? ;; ]

Date: 2010-01-07 06:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] obliviomancy.livejournal.com
Is that what you meant when

...

Date: 2010-01-07 06:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] obliviomancy.livejournal.com
... You said they lose their hearts, right? Is there any way to get them back?

1/2

Date: 2010-01-07 06:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
It's a only a saying. They didn't actually lose their hearts.

2/2

Date: 2010-01-07 06:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
I don't know. Maybe they get their feelings back once their stars fall.

Date: 2010-01-07 06:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] obliviomancy.livejournal.com
You mentioned the stars before, too. How do they fall?

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bedtiiiime. \o

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<3 /tucks in

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sob

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see Roxas. see Roxas fail.

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Date: 2010-01-07 07:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 2ndnightshift.livejournal.com
Just because people don't show emotion doesn't mean that they don't have them, Suou. It's very, very hard to tell.

Date: 2010-01-07 08:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
Even Papa said to stay away from Shion. It didn't matter to him that we were family anymore- that he was my twin brother. He said he could hurt me.

... And that man, he didn't call himself human. He called himself a Contractor. Doesn't that mean he doesn't think he's human? That he isn't human?

Date: 2010-01-07 08:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 2ndnightshift.livejournal.com
That's a very hurtful thing. I can't say I know what he was thinking but...at the time he thought it was best. That couldn't have been easy for him.

You know, people can say anything they want. Saying something doesn't make it true. It's just an opinion.

Date: 2010-01-07 08:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
How can you go from being in love with someone to wanting to hurt them the next day? To forget about all the people you cared for in a single day?

How can someone kill so easily and not care? That Contractor killed Bella and my Papa! He would have killed that other Contractor too, and he might kill me too when I return.

Date: 2010-01-07 08:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 2ndnightshift.livejournal.com
I haven't got that one figured out. All I can do is guess. And people in desperate situations make judgments based on little they can in favor of action.

I'm sorry you had to be a part of that.

Date: 2010-01-07 08:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
Contractors don't make rush decisions; they only make rational ones.

I'm the one who got myself into trouble.

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Date: 2010-01-07 01:57 pm (UTC)
freckleddoll: (Freckles - so strange)
From: [personal profile] freckleddoll
Doesn't everyone feel pain? Maybe they jus' don' show it, or...

Date: 2010-01-08 10:25 am (UTC)
freckleddoll: (Freckles - blimey)
From: [personal profile] freckleddoll
Your world really don' sound all that good...

Date: 2010-01-08 06:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
... All worlds have their good parts and bad parts, right?

Date: 2010-01-08 09:00 pm (UTC)
freckleddoll: (Freckles - it's the basics)
From: [personal profile] freckleddoll
Yeah, you're right. Mine's the same, a lot of it ain't good but not all of it's bad.

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Date: 2010-01-07 04:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] straycontract.livejournal.com
[watchin' you. from a bookshelf.]

"Hate" is a harsh word for an entire group of people, little miss.

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Date: 2010-01-08 01:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
... I don't hate Shion or Bella, even if she lied. I'm cursed.

[ she's avoiding eye contact with you, Mao. The carpet looks like a good thing to stare at. ]

Do you feel pain?

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Date: 2010-01-08 01:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] straycontract.livejournal.com
[he can't have that. Jumping from the bookshelf, he glides down to land neatly on her head.]

I've never met a Contractor who didn't, in one fashion or another.

Date: 2010-01-08 01:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
If they can feel pain then how can they hurt so many people, Mao? They know what pain is...

[ You've certainly had to deal with consoling her a lot lately, haven't you, Mao? Though consoling might not be the best way to describe it... ]

... Have you killed anyone, Mao?

Date: 2010-01-08 02:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] straycontract.livejournal.com
Syndicates and governments give Contractors protection in return for utilizing their powers. ...I've been involved in many deaths, to that end.

strike = thoughts

Date: 2010-01-08 02:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
... Why are you following me then? You said you were after my Papa's research, but he's dead- Are you really after Shion? Do you want to kill-

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