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[ ☄ audio | not private thanks to no inner monologue curse ]
You can't close your eyes forever, Suou. Time has stopped and you may be in this world, but that doesn't change how things are at home. This isn't a dream. One day you will have to wake up. Any moment, any day, any second now- you will open your eyes and everything will be as it was.

As it should be.

I don't want to leave.

All my friends here, everyone who has been so kind to me— the lady at the grocery store who always asks me about my day, Roxas, Dr. Wilson, Blue, Mr. Veidt, Konata, Doll, Mr. Drieberg, everyone...

I can't lose my memories of this place. Of all the people here. To forget something or someone is... almost like you're erasing them from the world. As if they don't exist. And if I forget about them, doesn't that mean they will one day forget about me?

I don't want to be forgotten anymore.

However— A person can't live in a dream forever. No matter what happens here... things must move forward. It is impossible to run away forever, to pretend and hide yourself away from the truth. It doesn't solve anything. That's why...

I have to get away from that man. I have to find Shion. But where do I start looking? Where could he be? How do I even get away in the first place? And then, after I find him... Even though it's been years since we've seen Mama, she would still want to take care of us. She's our mother. Of course she will-- she has to.

Where else could we go?

And if that doesn't work out, I'm sure I could take care of the both of us. I could definitely get a job, and I know Shion would help all he can. As long as the two of us are together, everything will be okay. Anyways, I'm sure Mama would want us. I'm just being silly, aren't I?

I'm not afraid. I'm not scared of that man or those people. The future doesn't frighten me.

I think I am; a little bit.

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Excuse me— I have a few questions. Proper questions this time, if any of you wouldn't mind answering?

To anyone who has left the City, have any of you been able to bring things back from the City?

And... just because a person hasn't seen you in a long time, that doesn't mean they don't like you. If it's someone you love, someone who you know loved you- being far apart for along time doesn't change anything. Right?

[ooc: Affected by No Inner Monologue Curse. ALSO I apologize for the constant baaaaaaw with her-- it's canon and fitting since she will be getting an update soon. So, yes. Thank you. ♥ ;3; ]

Date: 2010-02-21 01:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] aibyoukaonigiri.livejournal.com
I've heard that...sometimes people remember. At least...there were a couple of people who remembered in their dreams. If you can remember in your dreams...then surely...there has to be a way.

Date: 2010-02-21 01:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
People don't see dreams as being real, do they? They're only images created by the mind.

I wouldn't know they were real.

Date: 2010-02-21 02:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] aibyoukaonigiri.livejournal.com
But...if you can remember even on a subconscious level...that still means the memories are somewhere within you.

It's possible that...you could maybe...still remember them on your own, even outside of dreams...

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Date: 2010-02-21 02:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
How could I bring them to the surface, then? As long as they're not real to me when I'm awake, it will still be like they're forgotten.

What if I could never remember the-

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Date: 2010-02-21 02:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
How-

How did you know I was thinking about memories? Did you read my mind?

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Date: 2010-02-21 02:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] aibyoukaonigiri.livejournal.com
N-No! I don't have any abilities like that. You just...mentioned it, didn't you? Um...not wanting to lose your memories.

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Date: 2010-02-21 02:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] aibyoukaonigiri.livejournal.com
I don't blame you at all. Losing your memories, forgetting things important to you...

That...is a really scary thing.

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Date: 2010-02-21 01:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] playstheblues.livejournal.com
I loved someone for a very long time, even though we didn't see each other.

Date: 2010-02-21 01:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
Why didn't you see each other?

Date: 2010-02-21 01:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] playstheblues.livejournal.com
She was in another world. Back home we have a lot of different ones.

Date: 2010-02-21 02:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
The reason she didn't see you was because she couldn't? Mama's never come to see us, even though she's a country away.

She's not a world away.

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Date: 2010-02-21 05:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 2ndnightshift.livejournal.com
Some people have, Suou. I mean, the logic here is so random. Why wouldn't there be a reason?

Date: 2010-02-21 08:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
How sure are you? Have you ever met anyone personally who has kept their memories?

I'm scared of forgetting.

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Date: 2010-02-21 06:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] obliviomancy.livejournal.com
Was that supposed to...

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Date: 2010-02-21 06:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] obliviomancy.livejournal.com
[ ... kind of. ]

I think... real love's got to be pretty hard to get rid of. How could time change that?

Date: 2010-02-21 08:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
If you really loved someone, why would you wait so long to see them?

Date: 2010-02-22 02:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] obliviomancy.livejournal.com
Maybe something happened. Or something else got in the way. I don't know.

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Date: 2010-02-21 06:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] worksmart.livejournal.com
Have you heard the saying 'absence makes the heart grow fonder'?

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Date: 2010-02-21 08:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
In Russian, we say: Да́льше с глаз, бли́же к се́рдцу. I think it means the same thing— "further from the eye, closer to the heart." Is that right?

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Date: 2010-02-21 08:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
... But if you could see that person you loved, why wouldn't you?

Date: 2010-02-21 10:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] worksmart.livejournal.com
Right, that's the same meaning. I don't know why anyone would choose to be apart from someone they loved, but I know you can't always control circumstances. Being far away doesn't mean you're going to feel something less.

Date: 2010-02-21 12:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapanwood.livejournal.com
That's what I want to think. I mean... that's what I believe. Papa never spoke about her, and he never liked us talking about her. She's always busy herself traveling around the world taking photographs. It makes sense why we were never together.

... I can't stop worrying. Just a little bit. I don't mean to talk this much, but the curse won't let me keep my words quiet.

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YUP..

Date: 2010-03-06 07:54 am (UTC)
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